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Moon Time Revelation
(Editor's Note: This was originally published in 2001, when moon time was still a monthly thing, instead of the yearly thing it has become. On edit again in 2005, I can say moon time is now non-existent!) * "Anger is always a signal that something
you need is missing or something you can't tolerate is present." Martha
Beck I was reading (always read in the tub!) the March 2001 issue of Real Simple, a magazine I found left behind at the post office. I've never heard of it, but I'm enjoying it! It encourages us to slow down, do nothing, be fearless and guilt-free about doing nothing, and simplify our lives. My life is pretty simple already - I could have written this magazine! Anyway, I came across an article about taming our anger and making it work for us, productively and creatively. Just as with all conflicts or negativity, if you own it, it subsides. In Conversations with God, Neale Donald Walsch says it like this: "What you resist persists. What you look at disappears." Own your stuff, and it becomes easy to live with, easy to love. I'm familiar with anger. My childhood was lacking in love and compassion, replaced with gross materialism and superficiality. That was after I was taken from my mother at birth. I have a right to be angry, but only in the last few years have I really come to terms with it. I feel it, recognize it, and it's okay to be angry. It's not ME that's angry, it's that wounded little girl. I finally see the difference between the two people. I've done some counseling around this, and it has brought me my awareness. But it's kind of a stalemate. I only get so far, then I feel there's a need for something else, something different, something obviously unknown. I assimilate my new learnings, and move on, feeling unsatisfied. The author of this article, life coach Martha Beck, states that her coaching does not dwell on the past, but empowers people to focus on the present and their current needs. And THAT is my revelation. It's time for me to know my history and allow myself to be angry about it, yet focus on today, and know the difference between the two - yesterday and today. To move forward, embrace and travel into the future with that little girl as a passenger. To put the pain away and be happy with today. Making the change from backwards to forwards, past to present and future, is empowering in itself! I can live with this thing that is my karma, and it won't defeat me. It is a part of me, and that is okay. To accept what I have seen as ugly makes it endearing. Because it is moon time, this is very powerful! Women are blessed with this monthly cleansing. During the reflective half of my cycle, I am forced to dig to my core and touch the unseen and unknown. The deepest part of me is brought to the surface by the most powerful of dredgers, and I don't frighten it away. I welcome it, cherish it, honor it, and let it guide me. Think and write about how you can move from past to present. How can you see something differently, so that you're more fulfilled, more focused, more content. Picture yourself making a 180° turn from an unpretty part of you. And take advantage of the introspective part of you that makes you a woman. It's as powerful as dreams for learning about yourself.
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